Dear Schatz,
I am super glad that I have a week off. It’s good for me. A week off my stressful work is really a blessing to my wilting soul and should be celebrated by just being lazy. Yes. Being lazy—sitting around, doing nothing, eating when I am hungry, and sleeping when I want. I feel the need to replenish my energy this way. I know that there are tons of things to do like unpacking our boxes, cleaning this and that, ironing clothes, organizing stuff, and so on but I want a break from all of these otherwise, I will get crazy.
I know that if you were the one having a week off from your work, you’ll work on the house nonstop. Unfortunately for me, I don’t have the energy or maybe the spirit to do that.
We’ve worked hard. Can we slow down a bit from here on?
And yeah, the thing I was talking about in my last letter—the thing about “buying a house” giving me a whole new insight to our relationship. You see, we never have to worry about a lot of things prior to the purchase of this house so I am quite surprise that personalities I didn’t know exist are surfacing just because we bought a house. I am not only referring to your personalities but mine as well. I realized that we are two people who want completely different things. Of course you consult me about what I want but not without giving me a preselected (by you) set of choices. It’s like… “Okay, these are the things I like, now what do you like from these things?” What happens if I want something completely out of your preselected things? I get a lengthy explanation why it is not possible, or it is not the best solution, or whatever. So what happens next? I give in and choose something from your preselected things.
Also, I know that everybody is excited about this house and I love your parents and I honestly think that they’re great and are nice persons but if we agreed on something already, can we please just push through with that without you consulting your parents about it? I know you value your parents’ advice and I do too but there are just things that I believe, we can very well manage by ourselves.
I know you just want what’s best for the house and I honestly think you have a very good taste but sometimes…just sometimes, I wish you could also let me feel that I have a “say” on this house. Sure, you let me decide over things but I am not a stupid not to know that these are unimportant and are only given to me to decide on just to make me feel that I am also making some decisions.
I’ve always thought that I am strong-willed person so I am really surprise to find myself succumbing almost always.
Maybe I still am a strong-willed person.
Maybe that’s the reason why I have this burdensome feeling every time I “just” give in.
But why do I yield?
I know…
Ich liebe dich mein Schatz.
Kussl,
Schatzl
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Girl, I have to say that it is really normal, you are not alone, I had experienced that too, during our first 3 months of marriage but then pinaglaban ko ang gusto ko. tell him how you feel about it and you’ll see. right now, pagdating sa Haus etc..ako nasusunod. your the wife and you have all the right to say. Pagdating sa parents in-laws, it is okay na pakingan opinion nila but at the end of the day, your will be done parin. kayo ang titira sa haus and you know whats best for both of you. Hay naku girl, kung sakin yan, di tlaga pu-pwede. I mean, ipaglaban mo ang sa inyo at the same time di mo nasasaktan ang feelings nila.
wow. idol talaga kita sa lahat ng bagay. kung ako siguro puro “oo, okay, sige” na lng ang masasabi ko. o kaya “ay ganun ba?” hehe. pero pansin ko mas nagiging “open” yung mga posts mo dito. di ko mahanap yung tamang term eh. pero parang mas personal yata yung mga topics mo ngayon kumpara dati. ang galing
keep it up
nga pala, nalimutan ko na kasi yung password ko sa odesk kaya di ko maaksep yung invitation mo haha! sorry
Well, I’m living with an Austrian girl in my country and it is difficult when she wants something….
WELCOME TO THE REAL LIFE! but hey, it is completely normal!